Love is something that is unpredictable. You could think you’re in love, but never really know if you are until you realize that you can’t live without that one person in your life. It was hard for me to realize love was always there. Waiting for me. It was right next to me and I never knew it. All this time I had been worrying about losing all those other guys. I thought there was nothing left of me, but there was. There was still that one guy that had stuck with me for the longest time even when I was talking to other guys. He is everything I have ever wanted. He has the most gorgeous eyes, a beautiful face, a warm personality, and his kisses are ones I have never experienced before. He is a gift from God. He is so fucking beautiful. We had a thing from July till now. All he wanted was to be with me, but I just kept blowing him off and now I think I have strong feelings for him. I just hope he still feels the same way back. It’s complicated right now, but I hope he knows that I cry at night because we just can’t be together at the moment. We have to wait because he wants to, but I am so scared of waiting. I am scared that there is going to be someone who comes along and snatches him from me. I am so terribly scared because my heart will be broken and I will be scarred. I gave everything up to this one guy that was always here for me. He tells me he cares about me and I tell him I care about him. One time he said to me: ”love will find you someday” and it was the sweetest thing a guy has ever said to me. I was speechless. Now I think love has found me. The man who said that is the only man that knows my heart. He knows not to brake it, but I am still scared he will. I try not to get my hopes up, BUT I just can’t let go of him. I know for a fact he can’t let go of me neither. What we have is something special. Something that can never be replaced and even if he breaks me, he will always be in my heart. Even when I’m old, he will always be my teenage sweetheart. I will always remember him. I pray to God asking him for help. I ask for him to not let him go cause this love is meant to be. I know it is. He wouldn’t have stuck around this long if it wasn’t meant. Of course, we fight and say things we don’t mean, but I know he still won’t leave me. I feel so much pain because I am scared of the future. I don’t want this love to ever end, but most of all, I don’t want to lose him. Dear baby, I hope you realize who the right girl is for you in the future. It’s gonna be the girl that has been waiting those five months out just to be with you. That girl is me. Please don’t make a mistake and drop me because I won’t come back. Don’t make the same mistake all the other guys did. Don’t let go of me because I am special and you deserve me just as much as I deserve you.
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Love is beautiful.
